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19 January 2007 @ 03:46 pm
[Thread] After You've Gone [Naruto + Sasuke]  
Naruto winced as he strummed another sour note on his guitar.  He shuffled the papers that held the chords and lyrics to his latest angsty heartbreaking song.  That was what sold afterall and right now he had plenty of inspiration.  It helped to get out a little here and there, but he still missed her a lot.  He didn't even feel like himself lately. 

It didn't help that every time he put in a movie, it was a romantic comedy or something.  He just felt like watching things explode.  There were lots of action flicks out.  Maybe he'd go rent one, make Sasuke watch it with him.  Not that Sasuke had been around much either.  And even he wasn't feeling loser-ish enough to go to a movie theater alone.

He stopped playing long enough to hear rustling in the other room, proof that Sasuke was home at least.  Picking up his guitar and hoping for some attention, he sat on the floor next to Sasuke's shut door and started playing again.  It usually only took about three or four runs through of Blink 182's "Adam's Song" before Sasuke started complaining that his ears were bleeding.
Uchiha Sasuke: Beneath it allfilming_revenge on February 12th, 2007 08:24 pm (UTC)
Sasuke said nothing at first. Let those words simmer in his mind as he sipped his tea. He wasn't exactly beyond missing anyone at this point in his life. Rather, he had simply come to terms with it - by that meaning he had learned to harbor the pain and the anger [an anger crafted from the hurt of yet again being left behind] that came along with missing.

It had been the same with his brother, the same when he himself had left. And Naruto's words did nothing but stir those uneasy feelings within him, a fact that scratched annoyingly at his ego. Like a child wanting attention.

He hated that image.

"Tch. . .you should get used to it, Naruto," Sasuke muttered over his cup. Dark eyes flashed with pain, that long-buried hurt that had somehow managed to be reborn with a fine red sheen of bitter hate. A look that whispered of betrayals that were, of betrayals yet to come. "It'll happen all your life."
kyubi_rock: Shhhkyubi_rock on February 12th, 2007 08:55 pm (UTC)
Naruto set his jaw firmly at Sasuke's cold and hurtful words. He'd heard them from so many people and so many times, but he'd always tried to believe that it wasn't always true. That someday... there would be people who wouldn't leave, who wouldn't just forget about him entirely.

He always tried so desperately to be loved, but rarely was it returned. To hear these same sentiments from someone he considered a friend... it hurt. Naruto was rarely good at hiding his emotions and the pain was obvious on his youthful face. It was like rubbing salt in a wound.

"You must really hate me," Naruto said quietly, begging tears not to come to his eyes. "To drag me all the way out here... make me think you care at all, think that maybe I had a friend... and all of that just to rub this in my face?" He clenched his fists at his sides, trying not to shake. "You think I don't already know that? You think I haven't already been through enough of that to... to know better?" He shook his head slowly, "But I'm not like you. I can't just close myself off and pretend like I don't care! Yeah, hell yeah it hurts, but at least I know I'm still alive and that once upon a time, I knew what it felt like to be happy."

He stood up, nearly knocking his chair to the floor as he gathered his things to leave.
Uchiha Sasuke: Can't Sleepfilming_revenge on February 12th, 2007 09:11 pm (UTC)
"I don't hate you."

He was staring at his cup when those words came out. As though he chose not to acknowledge the fact that Naruto was on the verge of leaving, that he was the one who had ignited that reaction. After all, it was almost second nature now, pushing everyone away.

But it was harder to do so with Naruto. Sasuke had no idea what had happened between them over all these months of living together, but something had changed and he was now finding himself reluctant to just kill off the blond. Erasing every memory, every exchange between them, even though he knew it was something that needed to be done. . .

"But what does that matter? Why would it matter if I said you were the closest thing to a best friend I've ever had? In the end. . ." Sasuke stopped speaking, watched as his fingers aimlessly traced the edge of his cup. There was a bitterness to his voice that he had not been aware of, not until those last few words had fallen free.

He looked up at Naruto. And it was shamelessly apparent in the way his eyes met the blond's.

What would it matter when I betray you in the end?

But he had yet to notice the hurt that lingered, hanging onto the smile that clung to his lips.
kyubi_rock: boy and his guitarkyubi_rock on February 12th, 2007 09:32 pm (UTC)
It took Naruto a long and quiet moment to realize that Sasuke meant what he said. That if he left, Sasuke might actually miss him or... well, he knew it would be pushing it to even think that he'd be missed by his room-mate. It was probably the first time Sasuke had actually called him a friend. Not idiot, moron, pain-in-the-ass... but friend. And if there was one word that bound him to others, that held his loyalty so tightly... it was friend.

Naruto sat slowly back in his seat, watching Sasuke's eyes. Even in this situation, he still smiled, but there was a coldness to it that just didn't reach his eyes. His own blue eyes were glossy, as though tears might fall at any moment.

"Because at least I would know," he said quietly, ignoring the strange looks they were getting from other patrons. "At least I'd know that I wasn't the only one who thought so. It might not mean much to someone like you who... who is liked by people wherever he goes, but... it means a lot to me."
Uchiha Sasuke: Waitingfilming_revenge on February 12th, 2007 09:55 pm (UTC)
Sasuke looked away, hating the idea of tears coming from Naruto though he wasn't at all surprised by it. The blond was just that sort of person - overly emotional in ways that he wasn't. After all, Sasuke was well aware of the hold his own emotions held over him. But they were choking, constricting things that governed his life in ways he could almost regret.

Almost. The prospect of revenge fulfilled was more than enough to make him forgo any feelings of guilt. Too far deep into it now to ever consider backing away.

But unlike Naruto, there was nothing innocent, nothing bright that belonged to him. And Sasuke was made painfully aware of that fact as he listened to the other boy speak of things he could never, ever allow himself to believe in.

Hands brought the tea to his lips, Sasuke taking a long swallow of the liquid before setting the cup down upon the table. Even if he was going to throw it all away, maybe the moron had a point.

At least I'd know.

"Che. . .would you drink that abomination of a drink you ordered already. It's getting cold."
kyubi_rock: Shhhkyubi_rock on February 12th, 2007 11:02 pm (UTC)
Naruto could feel his anger start to ebb away into exhaustion as he slipped his fingers around his mug and did as he was told. After all the emotionally draining things he'd gone through today, this was just the icing on the cake. He didn't have the words or the strength to argue and so he just... did as he was told. The sweet liquid warmed him and for a while, maybe they didn't need to say anything. He had enough thoughts running through his mind to more than fill the empty space left by the lack of conversation.

In spite of it all... he actually felt alright. Even though Sakura was gone, she was going to better things. He could still write her. Email from time to time. And he still had friends... even if they didn't want to admit it.